7?
Seven?
SEVEN?!?!
I can't even think with that right now. Tomorrow I'm 30 weeks along, and if the c-section continues to be imminent, then it could be only another 7 weeks.
7?
That's far too few. I've hardly had a chance to think about this pregnancy, this impending doubling of our little ones.... much less blog about it. I haven't even written the little guy a letter. :(
7 weeks...
By then I hope, hope HOPE Tomek is working a different job, a less stressful job. Seeing the toll that his current work is taking on him, and feeling the effects it's having on me, and the limited time he gets to be with me and LB, the switch can't come fast enough.
Back to the little guy... he kicks up a storm what feels like all the time. Right now he's quiet, but often he's rolling and kicking and punching until 1:30 a.m... I think we can feel much more than we did with LB because my muscles and everything aren't strong and toned (snort) like they were before I had LB. Everything's kinda loose. Stretched.
I'm happy to say that I have no water retention yet and I don't think I've ballooned out the way I did with LB, when I gained 40 lbs. I think I've only gained 20 so far. I know I'll lose it so I'm not agonizing over it or hopping on the scale every day. Once a week, yeah. And I'm not proud to admit that the main reason I'm happy I'm not a blimp is because I'll be able to feel like I look good when we are with the in-laws over the holidays. I initially met my SIL a couple weeks after LB was born. She was shocked at how thin I was by Christmas, and I enjoyed having that effect.
Sigh. This time around I'm more dreading the BIL, though. But I know I stress and over think and picture all these different scenarios of what might happen weeks ahead of time and work myself into a total mess. I'll just be pleasant and hope he does the same, without making any comments about my parenting style. Because he has yet to say anything nice about me, or anything remotely complimentary to me. Yes, I keep track. Bah. Sometimes I hate the way my mind works.
I guess in the new year it'll be time to rearrange a lot around here for the little guy. I wonder if I should just call him LG online. LB and LG. But then people might think it's Little Boy and Little Girl when it's really the opposite. Or maybe they won't.
I have to go Christmas shopping for my brothers tomorrow. Sob. Out. In stores. On the weekend before Christmas. Why does this always happen to me? At least I only have to hit 2 stores. Oh but we have to get something for my SIL's mom who's coming from Russia. And Tomek has a godson, but we are just going to give his mom cash because that's all she wanted for his 1st birthday. They have TONS of toys, and limited space, so I can understand. She can use the money for when she needs something for him.
I still have some baking to do, gingerbread cookies that we decorate and I was going to try some brownies with crushed candy canes on top. And we still have to make both mosaic things for the grandparents. And wrap everything.
I keep veering off the subject of the LG. I dont know what to say. Or what to think... as of today I'm having 2nd thoughts about breast-feeding. I just remember how much it wiped me out with LB, and I can't imagine nursing while keeping track of LB every couple of hours each day. I really think it might be in my best interest to bottle feed. I use the same formula that I was given, so I don't have any qualms about it... and I've been using it with LB since I stopped nursing her at 9 months. But what if he isn't as healthy and strong as LB because I don't nurse him?
I can't believe I'm going to have 2 children.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Our son could be here in 7 weeks
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3 comments:
oh, phx, i wish i would give you a big hug and a warm apple cider! 7 weeks is not long, it was 7 weeks that desirée had swimming lessons for and now it's over.
don't stress about nursing. do what's right for YOU and don't worry about B.S. BILs telling you what you should and shouldn't do as a parent. LB seems very happy and i'm sure your little guy will be strong and loved no matter how you feed him.
Dedemona is right. What is most important is that LG has a mother that isn't too stressed out. If that means feeding him formula, then so be it. My nephews were both fed formula and they're strong and healthy. But, my mother did say that when I was born (#2) breast feeding was WAAAAAAY easier than with my brother because she had experience. It might be the same for you.
I am sure LB is a sweet little girl. As long as she isn't a bad kid and she's happy, then your BIL should keep his mouth shut. You're doing just fine. You spend so much time with her, and really, that's the best kind of parenting - All "techniques" asside. She's smart and loved, and that's the most important.
AND (I just can't shut up, apparently), 7 weeks sounds like a limited ammount of time, but once the Christmas rush and stress is over, you'll have the time to concentrate on getting ready for LG to arrive. This is the busiest, most hectic time of year. I'm sure you'll manage. You're a capable person.
Desdemona: I'll consider myself e-hugged. :) Thanks for the verbal "chins up". I will do what's right for me... because when it comes right down to it, what's right for me is going to be right for LG, too, because if I'm doing well, he'll be doing well.
Morgan: To hear you say "so be it" about formula is a real boost to me. I know how important nursing Elayne was (is?) to you and that was partly what got me adamant about nursing LB. So that you don't think I'd be a horrid mom for choosing not to nurse, well, it's a relief. :) I can't WAIT till the new year when I can start (finally) focusing on the pending arrival of LG.
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