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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

feeling resentful

It's now been over a week since I requested an earlier mat leave departure date and nothing is happening. I've never felt so mentally drained in my life. I don't see how I can continue to function like this--it's not like it's any serious physical malady or I'm putting LB in any danger by continuing to work, but mentally I feel like I'm suffering. I get home, and I'm just totally done. Every other aspect of my life has fallen so far behind because while I barely function at work, I cannot function at home. I don't know how I can get a medical leave note, although I am going to try to see/talk to my family doctor as soon as possible.
 
I dont even think I'm capable of training anyone. I really don't. I'm in a fog all the time... and it's horrible. It's horrible to feel so mentally shut down. I can't function anymore. I can't do this.

1 comment:

Phil Plasma said...

Sorry to hear about it - I hope you'll get your departure worked out soon. I know it is really hard now, and I expect this will be hard to hear, but it is really in preparation for when the baby arrives - you'll be just as tired in the first few weeks... then it will get better, gradually, better.

Of course I'm not the mom, but I've been through it twice.