5.5

I love the mute button. Tomek and I are watching the 7th game of the Stanley Cup finals... it's the end of period two, and Tomek just dashed out the door to meet a guy who's interested in buying his car. Please please please. Edmonton is down 2-0. Piss. Anyway, I love the mute button because I don' t have to listen to all the stupid commercials and commentary crap that goes on between periods. Sweet.

Everything's kind of coming to a head here... work still hasn't found a replacement for me so I haven't even begun to train anyone yet--I'm going to make an appointment with my family doctor to see if I can't get on medical leave for exhaustion somehow. Tomek's trying to sell his car and has had people interested in itMy brothers were in town from Wednesday night till Sunday morning, so I was pretty preoccupied with keeping them busy and trying to catch up on things with them. We had a pretty good time although sometimes the malice that is between them is just... harsh. But I guess I can remember feeling that way when I was 17-18 too. They seemed to get along pretty well overall here though, so that was good. I was off work on Thursday and Friday but didn't catch up on sleep really at all, except that I slept in till 10 a.m. each morning. But I was up until 1 or 2 as usual. Ugh. I'm so scattered. I can't write well or cohesively anymore. I feel like I'm dashing off these notes to the outside world to tell you all that I am still here and please don't give up on me.

Tomek and I talked yesterday about the possibility of him finding a job about an hour east of here, away from the "big" city. Moving to a smaller city or town. I'm game. But he's been working at his job for 5 years now, which gives him a lot of credibility when it comes to trying to find a home. I got kinda stressed yesterday at the thought of the fancy footwork we'd have to do to buy a place while he still had this job, move and then get him started on a new job, while having a baby. So then we decided that he could look for a job out there now, but we'd still buy a place closer to the city, that way he'd be commuting against traffic, if it came to that, and if not right away, then he's still a decent distance from his current work. But where we live now, I don't know what I'll do when we have a baby--we live on the 2nd floor, and no elevator. Balancing stroller and baby up and down stairs.. ugh. But I suppose others have done it before me.

Holy fuck. the stanley cup just arrived in the back of it's own limo!!!

So we are still looking for a place around here and our agent knows a guy who owns a place he rents, just renovated it, she told him about us, and our potential interest and he said to call him back in another week and he'd think about selling, because he does have a lot on his plate. So she's going to call him middle of this week and we should hopefully know if that is an option or not. It's in a nice area that we'd like to live in, so maybe it'll be a nice apt. as well.

I have stretch marks on my belly now. nice big red ones. mmm mmm good. and only 5.5 weeks to go till LB's due date. yikes.