i miss blogging

I really do. I miss being in contact with all of you. I'm probably going to write most of this post while watching LB. Good thing I can type w/o looking at the screen or keyboard! :)

The work situation is slowly figuring itself out. I have to get into the office though. I haven't introduced them to LB yet, and a woman who started working there after me and gave birth a month after I did has already been in there a lot. She kind of cheesed me off. She was so adamant that she wasn't going to work there anymore after her maternity leave, and was going to tell them after it's up that she's not working there anymore, and here she is working before her mat leave is up and--well, good for her right? I just felt like I had a comrade-in-arms thing with her about quitting after mat leave. But now it looks like I won't be either.

I had a new worry about it all last night--as soon as I start back at work I'm probably going to feel horrid because Tom's mom gets to spend all that time with LB while I'm stuck at stupid work. But right now I feel like I should be getting back to work and bringing in some extra income--or at least as much as my mat leave pay if I can work part-time. I think I only want to work part-time to start. Then there's the whole deal with going away to Poland for a month in the middle of August.

My thought is this: work part-time (3 days a week, 830-500) From July 1st to the middle of August when I leave for Poland. Once I return from Poland, work full-time if they need me like that, or continue part-time till I build up enough work there to work full-time.

I've bitched about the company so much and I really am not too keen on working there, plus it's downtown which will be a bit of a hike, but I guess I just don't have enough faith in myself that I could find a better job, given my limited full-time work experience.

A friend of mine works at an internet marketing company. This is the second one. She got laid off from the first one because they automated her job (ouch) and within a few weeks she had a new job at this company. She says to start at an entry-level position and let the company know I want to be with them long-term and work my way up. I just don't exude confidence like that in interviews. Or at all, really.

Sigh. I'm going to go create an Amazon wish list now.

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oneword: gorgeous

what is gorgeous anyway? it's all in our minds, in our heads, but we let media lead the way. love = gorgeous. the more love, the more gorgeous someone becomes in my eyes.

does anyone see themselves as gorgeous?