Tired

Sleeping with two kids in one room has been almost impossible. If one isn't awake, the other is. Then the one who is awake wakes up the one who was sleeping. It's only really LG who wakes up LB but they are both proving difficult to put to sleep at night. Saturday night my dad picked the three of us up and we didn't arrive here till after 1 a.m. Then of course they both woke up when we got here. Took about an hour to get them to sleep and then LG woke again at 6 a.m.

Last night was bad, too, he threw up around midnight when my mom was trying to burp him, and it went aaaalllll over their nice clean hardwood floors. Better than on carpet I suppose. I was trying to get them both to sleep at the same time and it just wasn't happening. LB was trying to sleep but LG grunts so loud that he was keeping her awake. She finally fell asleep at 11:30 (my mom had LG out in the kitchen). Then he fell asleep as well about an hour later and slept till 6:30 a.m.

I'm getting WAY less sleep here than I do at home. The past 2 nights my mom has stayed up with me till LG is settled down for sleep, but tonight she was too beat. My brother stayed up with me till midnight but once LG started having a huge stinky runny poop he went to bed. Now it's almost 1 a.m. and LG is wide awake of course. Looks like if I get any sleep tonight it'll be out here on the couch so he doesn't wake up LB. All I want to do is snuggle in to bed with her because at least she SLEEPS and doesn't grunt or snore.

I met up with some friends from Grade 9 last night. I was only at that school for the one year, so it had been 11 years since I'd seen them. It was all right. They're nice enough, but again I feel like everyone around me is doing things in the right order and I've done things in an order that may have seemed nice in the short-term, but in the long-term is not making me feel good.

I don't know when I'm heading back home either. I know my mom would like us to stay as long as we can--and frankly I'm tempted to stay till he feels he misses us. But that doesn't usually happen till we get back. I haven't heard from him at all. I'm wondering why not. Why am I always the one to initiate? What good does it do to wonder. We are different. He's probably busy. But I wonder if he even thinks of me.

LG had a bottle, two dumps and a huge burp. I have a headache. He really needs to fall asleep. NOW.