lazy meme

Ever been too angry to sleep? I am. I thought my rage had disappated. But no. It flared up again and I hurled 2 loads of folded laundry across the living room. That didn't help. Now there's even more mess I'll have to live in tomorrow because mine are the only fingers that get lifted to clean. That's how I feel right now. I'm so fucking god-damned angry and I have no one to talk to. Which is why I'm sitting here like a pathetic fool typing to myself and then I'll launch this out into my members-only (as far as I know) bit of cyberspace... for what. I don't know. I don't know if anyone feels like me ever. I have these downs and they are harsh. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only responsible one, the one getting things done that matter to us. Things that aren't of interest.

I found a lazy meme over at Mella's. Since I can't sleep thanks to the tight throbbing in my head and chest, I'm going to fill this out and then--well, I don't know if I'll get it done before LB wakes up for a feeding, but we'll see.

1. Do you like cheese? Yes. Marble cheese (some would argue it's not really a cheese..pfft)

2. Have you ever smoked heroin? Hell no.

3. Do you own a gun? No. And I'm really not comfortable around any kind of gun.

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? If I think something might be wrong, or if I know it's going to hurt, yes.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? They are gross, but good.

7. What's your favourite Christmas song? Little Drummer Boy

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water, Earl Gray

9. Can you do push ups? I hope so. I can hoist LB up in the air repeatedly. That should count for something.

10. Is your bathroom clean? *snort* yeah right.

11. What's your favourite piece of jewellery? not big on jewellery, but I guess my engagement ring.

Where's 12? haha

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?I have no idea. I've never considered myself "sexy". My face is too round. And I don't pluck my eyebrows. Or show off my cleavage. Or wear super-tight clothes. Anymore. I'm a bum.

14. Do you have friends? A few.

15. Do you miss someone? yes.

16. Middle Name? Eileen

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? I wish I was tired. I'm dreading tomorrow. I'm still pissed off.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink: water, tea, Ribena

20. Current worry?: wtf am i doing

21. Current hate? getting god damned wishy washy in the name of being "open-minded"

22. Favourite place to be? on the floor, playing with LB

23. How did you bring in the New Year? at my in-laws. not by choice.

24. Where would you like to go? germany. scotland. somewhere just the 3 of us.

27. Do you own slippers? yes. do i know where they are? no.

28. What shirt are you wearing? gray hoodie

29. Do you burn or tan? burn

30. Favourite colour? green

31. Would you be a pirate? nope

32. What songs do you sing in the shower? i don't sing in the shower.

35. What's in your pocket right now? nothing

36. Last thing that made you laugh? LB

37. Best bed sheets as a child? white with blue flowered stitching at the top, to match the blue fuzzy flower blankets i had for my bunk bed.

38. Worst injury you've ever had? dog bite. left hand.

39. What is your biggest pet peeve? wet socks

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? one

41. Who is your loudest friend? don't know

42. Who is your most silent friend? don't know. i don't hang out with friends hardly ever at all.

43. Does someone have a crush on you? not sure anymore

44. Do you wish on shooting stars? yes, and on many other stars too.

45. What is your favourite book? don't have one

46. What is your favourite sweet? jelly beans

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? our first dance was to can you feel the love tonight? by elton john

48. What song do you want played at your funeral? hellifiknow

49. What were you doing at 12 AM last night? trying to get LB to sleep

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? must have more sleep.