Not one of the best weekends in the history of me. I spent the majority of it feeling very unappreciated, untalented, unwanted, uneverything except for LB's mom. It's so easy to downplay being a mom and feel that it's nothing, that I just sit on my ass all day and that is the extent of my existence--ass-sitting. And playing with LB of course.
This weekend all my un-ish feelings came to a head, coupled with some other shit, and... well, lets just be glad that when Tomek and I fight, we don't yell or swear or throw things at each other. Otherwise the neighbours would have been complaining. All 44 of them. Instead, we just didn't talk to each other.
I am such a wuss at fighting. I last a couple of hours, then I start missing the other person, missing the interactions, the hugs, the kisses, the normalcy of being together. Tomek, on the other hand, doesn't miss things like that, or even miss me, till he has them, or me, again. Lucky bugger.
We reconciled on Sunday and it ended up being a pretty peaceful day. We all puttered around here, got a bunch of cleaning done, LB was happy to entertain herself on the floor with her toys, and in the evening we watched Rio Bravo. No one told me that is John Wayne!! Yum!
And so it goes... down and up again.
In totally unrelated news, I need to find a way to make some money without putting LB in a daycare.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Climbing out of the valley
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3 comments:
wait, you didnt know that was john wayne? i know youre in canada, but thats part of western civilization. im amazed.
It will get easier when LB starts talking, once they have a growing vocabulary they'll talk so much you won't have as much time to feel the way you have.
I've signed up to opinionoutpost.com hoping to make a bit of extra money just filling out surveys. I've been with them a week and still haven't had one. Maybe for you, you could join this one and many others and see if that can turn into a revenue producer. Another thing you could do is start a blog about these survey experiences and for any of those opinion survey companies that have affiliate programs, have an affiliate link on your blog.
Good luck!
hmm, something internet based would be a great idea.. that way you could potentially be at home with LB and work on the side.. is there any freelance editing you can do from home?
i'm working on an idea myself, that I hope to launch in a few weeks.. it's taking up all of my spare time at the moment!
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