I've been talking big about how I want to attempt freelance work, build a web site on education, rah rah rah.
But, once I’m home from this dead-end, mind-numbingly stupefying (as in getting more stupid) job, I just want to slog around my apartment, picking things up here, sitting down, getting up, crawling into Tom’s lap for a snuggle… I don’t have any of that rioting get up and go go go that I should have—
I haven’t even applied for a single job yet.
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Okay, Phil (see comments below) is right. I am right in feeling what I feel and wanting what I want. And it is up to me. So, from now on, I have to do one thing per day towards making a difference in the public education system. Phoe gave me some great advice on looking for work within the education sector. Contacts would abound there, I imagine. Perhaps I'd need more schooling in education, perhaps not.
And ideally this blog will not become a mundane journal of my daily doings...
It's time to move forward.
2 comments:
This was my thinking when I spoke of losing the idealism of our youth. The more time that passes where this is all you do, the more your idealism will fade and you will learn to live with just going from day to day. I hope that you find it in you to move forward soon.
Me too, Phil... me too.
I don't want to have a day to day life...I want to have a lived life.
From now on, every day I have to do one thing toward moving forward. For my sanity as much as for anything else.
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