Passions and love… what if they never merge?
Love in one corner, passion in the other—
Everything is leading back to the church. The church I grew up with, the church I finally felt I had the freedom to leave—and now all the changes I want to make are being made and helped along by members of the church.
I’m attached by elastic.
I don’t want to be there, yet I fear deep down that it’s the only thing that can help me be truly happy.
Help me wrestle my demons into submission.
Help me capture my passions and live my life in ecstasy.
But what would ecstasy be without the man I love?
Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. - Lao Tzu
Is it all truth or fiction?
Thursday, June 09, 2005
2 halves, not whole
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Morning Sicky - Hope you're feeling better today. . .
I like your mood pictures - Do you mind if I copy you on THAT, too?
(My God, I feel like all I do is copy you. . .
I think I need some original ideas of my own. . . )
Also, faith is a personal thing. Do you believe what your religion teaches? Do you find you felt better about yourself, or better in general when you were an active member of your religion? To what extent was it a part of your life? Does getting re-involved in that religion mean you couldn't be with Tom?
Religion can be so inspiring for some people. If getting "back into it" will improve your life, your situation, your moods and your drive, and there won't be any negatives, they fly 'atter. It's when you have to sacrefice something you love in order to participate that makes it hard.
I would love to find a religion I could relate to - Just to get bath support group, the large number of people there beside me. . . And to have something outside of myself I could believe in.
Most of the things I believe in teach that it's okay to be self-absorbed, and that there is nothing greater than the human mind, which I agree with. But only being introspective is draining. I would love to have something other than myself to think about (Hence the desire for kids).
not "bath support group" - I can bathe on my own just fine. .
I think I was thinking "A" support group. . .
Odd. . .
You seem to be suffering so much unrest. Maybe returning to church would help center you a little. What returning to church has done for me is helped me focus on other-than-me a whole lot more.
As for what phoe mentioned, maybe we should start a bath support group - if nothing else it could be fun!
I've been in a life-long tug of war with this religion... I can't completely accept it or reject it. In high school I decided to not date people of that religion anymore because I feared them being more into the religion than I was, and if I chose to leave the religion, that would cause huge problems.
Of course then I ended up engaged to a non-* and then he left me because he feared I would get involved eventually and would want our children to know of the religion too...
And I don't know that two people of differing religions can be together happily, especially if one of them is ME.
And I don't want to sacrifice Tom... we come from completely different backgrounds, but I think he's the best for me I could have ever found.
I'm not much good at being self-absorbed. I love helping others that I care about and bringing them happiness... and I used to feel the same for strangers, but I find that is dying out a bit...
I agree that there is nothing greater than the human mind... it's what the human mind IS to people that can vary so widely.
Phil-you are right. I feel full of unrest and internally scattered. It's just going to be hard after having pushed away those who tried to get me to come back for so long.
A bath support group sounds like fun! What would it entail?
If you’ve discovered Lao Tzu, you’ve stumbled on to a method for solving your paradox, but it will take some time…;-)
I'm presuming a bath support group would involve all of us getting on a plane and flying to England, then taking a bus to Bath and stay there for a little while. I went in 1998 and absolutely loved it there!
I'm in, as long as there are baths to be had in Bath. . .
Turtle pool anyone?
It's all in good clean fun.
As long as they aren't snapping turtles, I'm in! Who's bringing the bubbles? (bubble bath or bubbly, or both!)
Bubbles and bubble or both in a bath in Bath. I like.
So Raven will be bringing spirits to the bath in Bath, Phoenix the bubbles and bubbly, Phoe the original concept, and I'll bring my odd syncopating banter.
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